Strike Out
After I placed the ad, and met the jerk and the guy who mysteriously bailed on me, I met the two other guys and it went great. Let me tell you about them and how it didn’t work.
The first guy I met was a substitute teacher. At first, when I was texting him, he said he didn’t like to talk on the phone. I didn’t want another friend like that, so I thought I’d cut him loose right away. But he wasn’t gonna let that happen too easily. He insisted that he only meant he didn’t like to spend a lot of time on the phone. OK, I gotta admit, it was a little bit of a ploy.
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Lean Times (Re-Post)
I was bored and horny. Its lean times, but I don’t feel like going back to the Craigslist buffet table for new meat. I gotta screen a hundred emails, deal with dudes that can’t take rejection, flakes, jerks and scared babies to get to that one hot stud that can make Pussy happy. I wasn’t feeling like making the effort. Read more
Getting Over Babyboy
Ok, last thing I told you, I was free. Well, its a little more complicated than that, I guess. We have to get through these aftershocks. I told you I feel Babyboy’s emotions. And right now he’s kinda angry with me and he doesn’t quite know why. I do, though. He enjoyed having me in this position of chasing him. Supporting him. Being the one he could count on to want him, always. He was courting and sexing the young girls, but that is naturally a gamble. You win some, you lose some, some nights you wish you could have some, but you can’t. But I was solid. I was the factor that made it so much easier to play the field. A constant source or reliable affection and ego gratification. I had taken that away. Read more
Spoiled Brat (Re-Post)
I met a new potential cub today, he’s only 20. He has this odd presidential sort of name, but I’ll call him Jason. Anyways, Jason friended me on Tagged. Which, in and of itself, was a little odd. I get a few friend requests a day on that site. Most of them are from men in my age group. So obviously, I turn down 99% of the requests. Maybe they just want to be friends. And maybe saying yes to their request will mean I have to delete a bunch of emails from men I am not attracted to. I think its better not to waste anyone’s time. I have 18 friends, so far. If I accepted all the friend requests, I’d have a couple hundred by now. When I get a friend request from a good looking guy in his twenties, I accept. Read more
Freedom
Ok, lets get right to what you want to know about. I told Stephen what I wanted. Sex and the truth about how he feels. But I didn’t get the answer I wanted. He was classic Babyboy, avoiding a straight answer. He wavered. I got impatient. I wanted a resolution. I wanted this thing to finally go forward or for him to set me free. Read more
Final Answer
I think I’m getting close to releasing this whole thing. Giving it to the wind. I’ve found a little strength to push away and I’m riding it. At least for right now.I feel like I can talk about it more. See, I was predicting this happy ending with Babyboy. I was pushing for it. The end of my cougar days capped off with a committed relationship. A boyfriend. That would have been great, right? Didn’t happen that way.
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Not Losing My Mind, Afterall (Re-Post)
Horny as I don’t know what, Jason didn’t do it for me and Babyboy was still waiting to get some transportation. I forgave him. Had to. What he does to me is too good to give up. So I will wait. But that doesn’t mean I’m going to go without sex. So I sent a text to James and he replied right away.
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Fried Chicken and Disappointment
Its so hard to tell you about what happened with Babyboy. I’m so stuck. In love with him and so hurt by him and I can’t get away. I’m trying to get away. I don’t know up from down. I’ve been leaning hard on Daniel to give me advice. To listen. And he’s been so good about hearing me. I wish I were with him today. I need another man’s body to balance all of this. As bad as that might sound to you, that’s just the way it is. What I really need right now is dick. Daniel’s would do nicely right now. But I can’t have him. Daniel is going through a bad time right now and he doesn’t feel like doing anything sexual. He’s kinda like me. An emotional mess half the time.
Welcome Back, Everybody (Re-Post)
I wrote off a couple of guys and now they are all back, apologizing and whatnot. All at the same time.
John finally got around to doing some of his work on the project we were working on together. After I wrote him off. I guess he got the hint. He sent me an email with an attachment of what he’d done. I haven’t talked to him about it yet, but I guess I’ll take him back. He has skills. Not so much in the bedroom, though. Read more
Right
Well, I finally calmed down a little after getting some dick and Babyboy and I talked. He’s coming over tonight, after work. He doesn’t know about me going back on my promise and I’m not going to tell him. Neither are you, so shut your mouth. I’m so excited and hopeful, but I’m trying to contain myself. Drinking. A little. Read more